I know I’ve been somewhat quiet lately.  I just haven’t felt like posting.  Also I haven’t been in the best of moods lately for a few reasons and I feel I post too many depressing entries. 

I’ve had a serious lack of motivation or desire to do anything at all except read and sleep.  School is doing fine.  I still have an A average in my classes.  I got permission to retake my math placement test because I was really sick the day I took it and I didn’t do well.  In fact, it was the day I had just come from the doctor’s office.  I haven’t retaken it yet, though.  I don’t want to until I study a bit more for it, but I have absolutely no motivation to study for it lately.  I’ve tried to push myself to do it and I haven’t been able to do it.  I look at the material for 5-10 minutes and at the first sign of discouragement, I’m on to something else.  I’ve had enough discouragement lately so I just am not able to handle any more right now. :(

I have a friend who might help me with studying for the test retake, but they have been too busy lately to even talk to me, much less help me with that.  Maybe they will be able to soon, but I have no idea at this point.  So I’m just discouraged about the whole thing and am contemplating not even retaking the test at all.  If I retake it without having studied enough for it and I don’t get the score I want, it will just discourage me even more.

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