I’m on my last day of antibiotics today.  I feel better, but I’m still coughing up some nasty stuff.  Also, my stomach hasn’t been doing well the last few days and I don’t normally have problems with my stomach.  So I’m not sure if it’s the medication or just another symptom of whatever bug I had.

I really haven’t felt like blogging much, so I’ve been reading other blogs instead of writing in my own.  I had two tests this week as well and have been trying to get my summer schedule lined up.  I was supposed to have my A.A. at the end of summer so that I could transfer to the University in the fall, but I just found out yesterday that isn’t going to happen.  I have to take 5 classes still and 3 of them are math classes.  One of the math classes is a prerequisite for the other two.  Of course they don’t offer that particular class in the first 6 week Summer Session so that I could take the other 2 math classes in the second 6 week session.  It’s only offered as a summer 10 week course which means I have to wait until the fall to take the other 2 math classes I need.  Needless to say, I’m not happy about this at all because it has set me back an entire semester.  But there’s nothing I can do about it (short of scrambling around and trying to find another college somewhere nearby that offers the first math class and transfer, but that would be a real pain in the ass and I’m not sure it could be done in time at this point). 

Since I can’t do anything about it and I’m pretty much stuck with having to go another semester, I am probably going to take a couple extra classes that interest me.  I have to do something because I don’t have a job and I’ll have way too much time on my hands only taking 2 classes in the fall.  The busier I am, the less likely I seem to be to get into ‘funks’ or into trouble.  Of course I’m still going to look for work, but I’m still considering something part time because once I start at the University, I’d really like to go full time so I can get this done quicker.

Another reason I haven’t posted in a while is that I’ve been in somewhat of a ‘funk’ with losing my job, then getting sick on top of that and now finding out I have to go an extra semester.  I didn’t feel like writing a ‘downer’ post for people to read.  There are a few other reasons I’ve been in a funk lately too, but those are personal reasons.  I do have one itty bitty comment or question, though.

Did anyone else think that when they left high school, they wouldn’t have to deal with people not wanting their friends to know that they talk to you because their friends gave them a hard time about it and/or they are ashamed?  I really thought I had left that sort of thing behind me but I still have it come up now and then and it irks me.  In most every single case, I don’t even really know the person’s friends in the first place.  I could understand if I had hung out with them and then they dismissed me as ‘weird’ or ’strange’ or something, but when I haven’t hung out with them or talked with them, yet they seem to pass judgment on me and give the one friend who does want to talk to me such a hard time about it that they feel they must not let their friends know they talk to me, I feel like I’m right back in high school again.  I actually had one guy from high school apologize to me years later because he did that.  He enjoyed my company and liked to hang out with me, but he didn’t want his friends to know and whenever they were around, he ignored me.  I barely knew his friends, except for one and that was because I was friends with his sister.  But I never hung out with his friends.  And even that guy got in touch with me years later because I think he felt bad about it, even though his sister and I drifted apart as friends.  I had never been mean or rude to any of them.  When I left high school, I never looked back, either, because at the time I didn’t feel there was anyone there that was worth my time and I’d just make new friends in college.

Anyhow, I didn’t mean to get off on that tangent, but it bothers me that this sort of thing still happens to me as an adult.  It’s bothered me for a long time, but it seems to more when I’m already sort of in a funk about other stuff.  I don’t feel there’s a whole lot I can do about it versus decide not to talk to people that can’t or don’t want to stand up to their friends if their friends are giving them a hard time for having anything to do with me.  But I’m not like that.  I wasn’t that way in high school either, and my friend and his friend both approached me at different times to somewhat apologize about being like that several years later.  I don’t think those two are even friends anymore.  Still, it made me feel good that they felt bad about it and said something to me.  It didn’t take away the years of being hurt, but it was way more than I expected to ever happen.  Come to think of it, I did this same thing to my mother when I was young.  She was so much older (and older looking) than all my friends’ moms, plus she was very overbearing and overprotective compared to them.  I never wanted to be seen in public with her or have my friends see that my mom was checking up on me.  I always wanted to ride my bike or walk to school instead of her taking me.  I would get tired of people asking if she was my grandmother instead of my mother.  She stayed home and did everything for me while my friends’ moms all had jobs outside the home.  So they had more responsibilities at a younger age and were allowed to do more than I was, and it was embarrassing to me.  I never really thought about how my actions might have hurt my mom’s feelings, but now that I have, I think I actually owe her an apology.

I’ve still been doing some knitting, especially in the evenings when I sometimes watch TV.  My one stripe has gone to several stripes now, although it still seems to be a slow process.  I’m not sure exactly how long on average it takes someone to knit something, but I know it depends on the item and also the knitter.  I’m sure I’m slower than more experienced knitters.  It just seems to take me longer to do things than it does most people for some reason.  I’ll have to try to post some more pictures of my WIP (work in progress) when I get a bit more done on it.  Also I’m casting on another project as well, so I can have even another project going as well.  That way when I get bored with one, I can switch to another.

I guess that’s about all the wonderful news I have for now.  :whatever: