I’m back among the living.  I went to my shrink last week and explained how I had been feeling overwhelmed and just really moody.  I know most of it is hormonal.  He tries to tell me I’m too young to be going through perimenopause, but when I explained all the symptoms I’ve been having, that’s the only thing that makes sense.  Hot flashes are uncomfortable, but so far I can deal with them.  My cycles are down to 20 days apart instead of 28.  I have more migraines.  PMS is an issue now and I didn’t used to have too much of a problem with it, just mostly cramps.  I have been more forgetful, it seems.  Of course there’s the lack of sex drive.  And then the moodiness, which is the one symptom I am really having a problem with.

Also, perimenopause tends to aggravate the symptoms of ADD, making it seem like the medication isn’t working like it used to or you’re just getting more and more forgetful.  I hear that passes once you’re through it.  At least I sure hope so.

 

My schedule is too hectic to be dealing with forgetfulness, moodiness or any other problem right now.  Last week just plain out sucked.  I was terribly depressed and just pretty much flaked out.  After beating myself up about that, I decided it was time to get back on the horse and move on.  I got into a bit of trouble at work, but I think things are smoothed over now.  I just can’t afford any more mishaps right now.  Because of that, I’m not taking my vacation during Spring Break as I had originally was going to do.  It’s less than a month and I’m not about to ask to take a week’s vacation less than a month in advance.  It’s no big deal, I suppose.  It wasn’t like I was going anywhere.

So anyhow, I visit my shrink Friday morning and he puts me on Prozac for the time being.  I’m already on one anti-depressant and some medication for the ADD.  He said it was common for some women to need something extra during perimenopause and menopause, especially if they are feeling overwhelmed and moody.  I was at the point where I would cry for no reason at all.  I could read a sentence and start crying.  It sucked.  The shrink said some people actually complain that they can’t cry after being on the Prozac for a while.  I don’t think you will hear me complain about that one.  It will take a few weeks before it probably starts to work.  Meanwhile, Aunt Flo is due for a visit.

Speaking of visitors, it appears my Mom is flying down March 17 (St. Patrick’s Day) to visit and going back that Sunday.  Two days I can usually deal with her.  We didn’t speak for about 2 months after Hurricane Katrina.  But of course she’s all happy I’m going back to school anyhow.  She hasn’t seen the house yet.  Not that she will actually SEE much of it being legally blind, but she can see some in her periphial vision.  I’m not sure what hubby is going to do.  My Mom is actually trying to be nice to him, but I don’t trust the situation one bit.  She hopes he will be here, but I’ve already warned her he may have to work over the weekend.  That way, at least he has an ‘out’ if he doesn’t want to be around her.

Because of last week and me basically getting behind in everything, I’ve been busy putting out fires and smoothing things over.  I think the work situation is handled for now.  There were a couple of things I needed to make up in school.  I did get an A on my Spanish Quiz and an A- on my World Religion quiz.  I don’t know yet how I did on my interview report I did on a Pagan/Wiccan group here locally.  I think I did well on it.  I’m pretty well caught up with everything except for my Art Appreciation class, which meets Thursday.  I should be caught up with that after this week, I hope.  I just can’t afford any more ‘pity parties’ right now.

I also met with my school counselor on Monday to make sure I’m on track with the classes I need to take in the summer.  I still need to do a placement test for math before I can register for the summer.  Hopefully I do well enough on that so I can just take the 2 math classes I need and not have to take a prerequisite.  I’ll need to do that either before or after the Spring break.

I really like the professor I have for Spanish I and I want to take her Spanish II class in the summer.  Only problem is that it meets during the day, when I’m at work.  I’m not going to say anything now because I certainly don’t want to rock the boat too much, but when it gets closer, I’ll probably ask my boss if I can just take my lunch during that time of the day and go attend class.  Class is a little longer than an hour, but I can come in a bit earlier or stay a bit later as well.  I’m pretty confident she’ll work with me on that one class, but I don’t know for sure.  It would just be nice to take Spanish II right after Spanish I and with the same professor.  I think the other classes I need are all offered in the evening.

I didn’t do squat for Valentine’s Day.  Hubby is stuck down in Melbourne for the week, so maybe we’ll go out to eat or something this weekend.  :love: I used to think V Day was a big deal.  Now it’s more like “Eh”…  I think part of it is that the friggen stores come out with the Valentine’s Day cards and candy right after Christmas, so by February I am really sick of seeing red and pink hearts, etc.  Tomorrow, the stores will be filled with pastel bunnies and chocolate eggs for Easter.  I don’t know why, but Easter just has never been one of my favorite holidays.  I used to love to go Easter egg hunting, but I don’t eat eggs, so after I found them, I didn’t really want them.  I just like finding them.  The plastic eggs that you can put stuff in were more fun.  Coloring eggs was always fun too, but again, I don’t eat them, so I always gave them to someone else.  I also remember having to wear some new dress and new shoes to church and how my feet hurt because of the new shoes.  I couldn’t wait to get home and get out of those shoes.  Now I prefer to spend my Easter Sunday barefoot at the beach (if it’s nice out).  To me, that’s more spiritual than having to wear uncomfortable shoes and put up with a bunch of stuffy people in church.  And I go shell hunting, instead of Easter egg hunting.  :biglaugh: