I have mid-term exams this week. It’s hard to believe the semester is halfway over. Anyhow, I don’t have much time right now as I’m headed to my Spanish test here in a few. I’ll try to post an update later on tonight about what I did over the weekend and what I’ve got coming up.
Ciao for now…
Someone in my World Religion class is doing a report on this particular religion. Evidently their main goal in life is to obtain “slack.” They even have a radio show devoted to slack on the site.
From what my classmate said, the ‘god’ that they worship, “Bob” Dobbs, was actually a piece of clip art from somewhere. Interesting…
Those of you that have ridden a motorcycle and wondered what would happen if an animal darted in front of you and you had no choice but to hit it, don’t have to wonder any more. I found out tonight.
The weird thing is that I kept thinking to watch for armadillos. I’ve seen several lately that had been hit and were still in the road. So I was worried about hitting something like a dead armadillo in the middle of the road. I kept having this eerie feeling about that. I was watching way ahead of me using the car’s headlights in front of me. I was almost home and had already past most of the places that I felt were more likely to have armadillos trying to cross. I had a car in the lane to the left of me. This is a 4 lane main road and everybody is traveling 45-50 or so.
Out of the corner of my eye, I saw movement and as quickly as I noticed that, the animal was running full blast across this road and ran right under the fairing that is behind my front wheel. I felt a bump, bump and the front wheel jerked a little and for a second the bike lost a bit of traction. I automatically slowed down, but didn’t hit the brakes and managed to keep the bike in my lane and upright. This animal was no armadillo though. It was moving way too fast. I think it was a cat, but I’m not totally sure because I only caught a quick glimpse of something brown headed directly for me and there was nothing at all I could do. It happened way too fast. Whatever it was ran off into the woods. I have no idea how badly the animal is hurt. I knew I wasn’t going to find him in those woods while it was dark and a bit foggy outside.Â
I feel bad, though. I know there was nothing I could’ve done to prevent what happened. But I still feel terrible. I’ve never hit an animal before and I’ve always thought that most of the time people could avoid hitting an animal but some just don’t go out of their way to avoid it. There was no way I could have avoided this. He ran between my wheels at the exact moment I was there.
Naturally, I’m a bit shaken up. It was just really odd how I kept having this eerie feeling about hitting an animal. Of course I was thinking it might be an animal already dead on the highway, not a live one trying to run across the highway.Â
I guess I’m probably lucky I didn’t wreck. It would not have been good as I had a car to my left, passing me and 2 more behind me in each lane. I would’ve been run over for sure. It just really sucks if I hurt or killed someone’s pet. :(
Friday
Hubby brought home a Brazilian co-worker/friend to visit for the weekend. Very nice guy…and nice looking as well… I don’t think he has any fat on him at all and he’s got one of the best 6-packs (abs)I’ve seen in a long time. Hubby is getting him into surfing and David (the Brazilian) is really enjoying it so far. We watched some television that night and our other friend Lou stops by. He’s the one that works at NASA, except now he’s going back to school to be a chiropractor.
Lou had a Super Bowl party, so we were reminiscing about that. He invited us over that evening for the Super Bowl and some food. They were grilling out and he had the fire pit going, as it was pretty chilly outside. So we watched the game outside by the fire and then during halftime, we ran some motorized scooters and pocket bikes around the yard in the dark. That’s a funny activity to watch when people get drunk. I know I had my own funny moment on the scooter. These things weren’t really designed to run around in the grass and wet dirt, either. There was a small crater (about 3 feet wide and 6 inches deep) in their yard. Guess who found it? It took everything I had to keep from busting my ass when I hit that damn thing. They should warn people about that before giving us a bunch of beer and setting us loose on anything motorized in the yard. Then again, it wouldn’t be quite as funny.
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Saturday
Saturday was going to be a really nice warm day so we decided to go surfing. The high was about 80 and it was going to be sunny all day. The waves really good form, the breeze was offshore and the water was a balmy 56 degrees. Brrrr! I got a bit of sunburned, nothing major. We came home and decided to relax for a while after all that. They watched TV and I worked on my knitting, since it’s going so slowly.
I’m really tired of knitting this cap, but I’m determined to finish it before I start another project. I know my tendency to start many things and finish few, so that’s why I’m only having one thing on the needles at a time. I’ve got about 4 more inches, I think and it should be close to finished.
Then we went out and did what they call around her as “the Flagler stagger.” Everyone goes to the beachside in New Smyrna and wanders up and down Flagler Avenue, hitting each bar on the street. Usually you go down one side, end up on the beach for a bit walking around and then go back up the other side. By the time you’re nearing the end, you will be staggering, hence the name. We left there and ended back at our home bar, the No Name. The band was really good and I talked to the guitar player afterwards. He told me he would tab out an Ozzy song for me over Bike Week. We got home about 2:30 in the morning.
Sunday
I was pretty lazy most of Sunday morning. The weather changed from being sunny and warm, to drizzle and chilly. At least it feels really cold when it’s wet. I decided to head over to No Name in the afternoon as they have a No Limit Texas Hold ‘Em tournament every Sunday. Usually they have a good turnout of about 30+ people. This time they only had enough for one full table because of the Daytona 500 being in town. Naturally there were some of these race fans in the bar. One guy in particular was pretty loud and obnoxious. He had been drinking margaritas for a while. Naturally he signs up for the poker tournament and ends up with the seat to my right.
This guy has no clue what the hell he’s doing. He’s trying to put his chips out before it’s his turn. He goes all in on every hand at one point. I had a decent hand, but I’m not going all in pre-flop and have this guy hit something, so I fold. He would say stuff like “These card’s aren’t any good” before he folded it, or ask what someone else had before the showdown, and of course he was quite loud about it. I could tell other people were getting annoyed as well and the dealer had to tell him several times to wait his turn. I quickly identified the 2 or 3 serious players at the table. Meanwhile, Loud Obnoxious Clueless Race Fan gets taken out first. I wasn’t surprised.
One of the first decent hands I had was the following:
6♣6♦
The button is to my left, so I open with a raise. I get two callers. Then the flop comes up as:
3♣4♥J♠
I check and someone makes a small raise. The other guy folds and I call. Then the turn:
3♣4♥J♠6♥
Again, I check. The guy again fires off a small raise. I call. Then the river:
3♣4♥J♠6♥A♣
I make a good pot sized raise. The other guy thinks about it for a long time and then he folds. I didn’t show my hand.
On another hand, I am dealt:
2♠2♣
I’m in the big blind and someone raises, so I call. There’s 3 of us. The flop is:
2♥K♠K♥
I raise a pretty hefty amount. One guy folds. The other guy is hesitant, but calls. Then the turn:
2♥K♠K♥J♣
I raise by the same amount I raised before. The guy was hesitant last time, and he thinks about this for a while. Then he folds and turns over his cards. He had a pair of Aces. So I turned my deuces over. He thought I had the 3rd King. He said he never would have put me on flopping the full house. I told him it was a good laydown. Not many people will lay those Aces down.
I take 3 people of the tournament with the following hand:
K♠K♥
I raise and I get 3 callers. Two are short stacks who go all in and the third one had about an average stack. The flop comes up:
Q♣Q♠8♥
I had noticed the 2 all-in callers, but for some reason I thought the 3rd was all-in as well, so I just checked. Then he checks, so I glance over wondering why someone who is all-in would be checking. I saw that he wasn’t all-in at that point. So then the turn comes up:
Q♣Q♠8♥3♦
I raise and put him all-in. He hesitates forever, it seems and then he finally calls. The river:
Q♣Q♠8♥3♦7♣
I take the pot. 2 people had Ace/rag and the guy who hesitated on calling had a pair of Jacks. So that takes 3 people out.
After that, even though I had a substantial stack, I couldn’t get cards for anything. The times I did have something playable, someone had something just a little bit better. So I ended up in 4th place and the guy who folded his Aces to my full house earlier ended up winning. He was one of the better players at the table.
They were having a second tournament and everyone wanted me to stick around (since I was the only female playing), but I decided to skip the second tourney and go home to be with hubby.
So that was my weekend… All in all, it was a pretty good one. :jap:
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This is my first time doing this, so I’ll see how it goes.
My fear this week is that someone I admire and look up to will think less of me because of my recent behavior and also because I’ve admitted to them weaknesses or things I’m ashamed or embarrassed of. I didn’t like hiding things from them because it’s the only relationship I have that I built on being absolutely and completely honest, and I made a promise I would let them know everything and not hide anything. I feel vulnerable because of it. It’s sort of like being completely naked before the person you most admire, look up to as a role model, or want to impress. A scary feeling, indeed…:shiftyeyes:
This next one I have found difficult to do on other people, but I hope some people will do this one for me as well. Sometimes it’s good to know what other people think so you can work on correcting your weaknesses. Be as honest as you want. I’m not going to be angry at anyone for what they say about me here.
Stolen from several people… Here’s my list of 100 things about me that you may or may not know. It’s a bit long, so I put it behind the cut. Click the link to read my list:
I’m back among the living. I went to my shrink last week and explained how I had been feeling overwhelmed and just really moody. I know most of it is hormonal. He tries to tell me I’m too young to be going through perimenopause, but when I explained all the symptoms I’ve been having, that’s the only thing that makes sense. Hot flashes are uncomfortable, but so far I can deal with them. My cycles are down to 20 days apart instead of 28. I have more migraines. PMS is an issue now and I didn’t used to have too much of a problem with it, just mostly cramps. I have been more forgetful, it seems. Of course there’s the lack of sex drive. And then the moodiness, which is the one symptom I am really having a problem with.
Also, perimenopause tends to aggravate the symptoms of ADD, making it seem like the medication isn’t working like it used to or you’re just getting more and more forgetful. I hear that passes once you’re through it. At least I sure hope so.
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No Half-Nekkid Thursday today. I just don’t feel like it. This is why:
Since I don’t feel very good about myself on the inside, it’s difficult to feel good about myself on the outside right now. All I can say is the outside definitely looks better than the inside.
Hopefully I’ll be back next week.
I thought someone told me that February would be better than January. So far it isn’t shaping up that way. I’ve got way too many demands on me right now. I’m overwhelmed, tired, grumpy. I feel like quitting everything right now and going away where no one will know where I am.
I know I’m not very good at time management. I tend to need some structure to my life, but it has to be the type of structure I want, or I’ll just fight it. If it’s someone trying to ‘mean well’ and give me some structure by pointing out all my shortcomings, or what I didn’t finish or get done, then I wish they would catch a fucking clue. I need structure, but I also need support, guidance and understanding. Structure does not mean bitching, complaining and pointing out everything I do wrong or what I don’t get done.
I’m going to clue you all in on something regarding people with ADD. If we aren’t getting any positive reinforcement of some sort, some sort of feeling of a job well done, a feeling of being useful, needed, wanted, our efforts at least acknowledged or encouraged, then it’s very unlikely we will see much point in trying any harder or busting our ass. It’s just like what they said in Office Space about working just hard enough to keep your job, but that’s it. With any incentive or possibility of incentive or reward, then we will do as much as what’s needed for people to quit their bitching, but no more. And we certainly won’t be doing things because we want to. We’ll be doing them to cut down on people complaining or pointing out our shortcomings. We tend to be a praise deficient group. It’s probably because we’ve had to listen to years and years and years of people constantly pointing out our shortcomings. We’ve heard very little praise because most anything we did do that was acceptable was glossed over. “You did a great job with this, BUT…” It was always the “but” that we dreaded to hear.Â
Therefore I am grumpy as hell. Nothing I have wanted to happen lately has happened. Nothing much has worked out in my favor at all. I got the third degree all weekend about needing to study and after going to bed at 2 a.m. Monday morning, I was awakened at about 3:30 because someone was so extremely pissed off that I woke them up, so they ranted and raved for several hours and made sure I had to stay up. It didn’t matter that I have 2 tests and 2 papers due this week. Evidently I must be the only one that gives a shit. Then this person had to stay pissed off at me all day and not even let me know if they got to their location in one piece or not. So now I’ve had to deal with someone who insists on still being pissed at me for accidentally waking them up, and I’ve got a test and paper due tomorrow. That’s a whole other story as well. It was just another of many recent happenings that are reminding me why I should not rely, depend on or trust anyone at all. People tend to leave me hanging. Now I have to basically pull something out of my ass because my interview fell through and my paper is due in about 12 hours. Thankfully, the rest of my papers do not require me to depend on or rely on another human being, which is probably a good thing. I’m beginning to believe that most people don’t really care, even the ones that are closest to me. I’m just very disgruntled at the whole human race right now.
I’ll be lucky if I make it to work. At this moment, I highly doubt I’ll go. I just can’t do it all and since I’ve got to become a major bullshit artist or find someone else on short notice to interview for my paper, something has to give. I only have $6 to my name until Wednesday anyhow and my vehicle is out of gas. I drive 50 miles a day going back and forth to work and I highly doubt $6 is going to put enough gas in the SUV to make it to work and back.Â
If it’s not freezing or rainy, I can ride the bike, but I try not to ride when I’m in this foul of a mood. Some asshose the other day thinks he’s going to come over in my lane while I’m riding the bike. Luckily he didn’t swerve over into my lane, but instead was coming over slowly. It was some old person of course. I hit the horn and they still kept on coming into my lane. So I hauled off and gave his driver’s side door a nice kick with my foot. By the way, you can throw yourself off balance doing that if you’re not careful. In this case it woke him up somewhat and he swerved back into his own lane. He gave me some apologetic look and I figure he never actually ’saw’ me even though he did look in my direction. It’s okay, though. I gave him a bit of a wry smile and then I wondered if he would even notice the dent I put in his door with my foot. Eh, probably not. Serves him right, though. People need to look before they just decide to switch lanes. I don’t ride there because I like to. It’s generally because some asshole in front of me won’t go the fuck on and some other asshole is so far up my ass that I can’t hardly see his bumper in my rearview mirrors. Mr. Old Man thought he would just squeeze in between them so he wouldn’t get stuck behind a truck going slow that was in his lane. Instead Mr. Old Man gets the crap scared out of him and a dent in his door. 
Oh, yeah, and I’ll be turning 40 beginning of next month and already I’ve had it with people planning to throw me a party with a bunch of black ‘Lordy, Lordy, she’s 40′ balloons. I don’t think I’m in the right frame of mind for that sort of humor right now. So if I just disappear for my birthday, you’ll know why.
I did get an A on my Spanish quiz. That’s about the only good and/or positive news I have to report right now. Everything else is pretty much sucking ass. Hubby and I are fighting about a lot of things…lack of sex, lack of time, lack of sleep, etc. Spring Break/Bike Week is coming up and I’m too exhausted to care. I wanted to go somwhere and get out of town, but probably won’t have enough money. My mom is flying down on St. Patrick’s day for the weekend. She wanted to come sooner, but I nixed that idea. So I’ve got to deal with that.Â
I’ve had 3 or 4 people lately tell me they would do something for me only to find out they didn’t or never intended to. My boss is on vacation this week, so naturally I have to handle whatever ‘problems’ may arise and naturally some problems did. Since I’ve had some people not follow through, and some leave me scrambling to get things done, I’m looking into the possibility of hiring an ADD coach to help provide some structure in a non angry way. It’s not cheap, though. If anyone can recommend a good coach, that isn’t going to cost me an arm or a leg, please let know…
I say “Good Day”.
I need a 
and probably a :pill:. I have the migraine from hell right now and I’m sure part of it is because I’m fucking irritated. :cuss: Hubby managed to piss me off just a wee bit…
So I’m going to rant about it in hopes I feel better afterwards. I’ll put it behind the cut since it might be a bit long.
:doh: I’m really late getting this up for this week, but I have been so swamped lately. I didn’t even have time to try and take a new picture, so I’m posting one I already had but many of you may not have seen. Some of you may have seen it, so I’m sorry if you’re disappointed that I didn’t post something new. 
Maybe next week.
First a word from our sponsor :jap:…
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And here’s my entry for this week, highlighting one of my best features according to some people: my eyes. Well, it’s one eye, at least. :smug: I took this picture with a webcam soon after coloring my hair red so the quality isn’t the best, but not a bad picture for a webcam. :sexy: Heh…my smiley even looks similar…:biglaugh:
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